Hi. This blog is about a paradox inside me. A paradox which can not be expressed in real life. I'm a crossdresser who lives in Iran.
Crossdressing (or Transvestism) is the is the mental desire to wear opposite sex clothes. This desire can be sexualiy stimulating or mentally needed for relief.
By the way I'm a male crossdresser, aged 21, a university student with good curriculum background and....eh...still a virgin. I've been in love twice. Before I get sexually exhausted from self-pleasure, I belived that I never can be bisexual or homosexual. But now I think my female side is coming up sometimes. But I haven't decided about going for a same-sex relation, yet.
I'm a sexy person in mind. I like being sexual. It took a long time to find my real joy in sexual feelings and clear the fog of misunderstanding and guilt about masturbation in my mind, not to forget this fact that I've been risen in an islamic country though not in a very islamic family.
Back to crossdressing, matter of fact, wearing female clothes (specially underwears) excites and stimulates me sexually. I've never been in public wearing female clothes, because I'm not that much passable as a female and also because of the fear of getting caught. So this behaviour remained a secret until now that I'm sharing it with you.
I've been very depressed because of problems I had with my ex-girlfriend. She left me at last to marry another guy.
This blog is some kind of escape toward light. Here, I can talk about my thoughts, ideas and problems and ask for your help. I'm really hopeful that I can find relief in telling all this secrets inside of me and reading your opinions.
Although I may describe my sexual fantasies and adventures here, I try not to get lewd and cheap.
