Being a tranny in Iran
I believe there are lots of people out there in Iran who tend to be on the tranny side; cross-dressers and trans-genders. Surely, Iran isn't the right place for being a tranny. The country has a long history of homosexual relationship between a mature as "active" partner and a young boy as "passive". Yeah! That's pedophilla. It's more or less reflected in classic literature, here and there. So when you face a love poem in a classic literal context, you can't be sure wheter it's about a fiancé or about a "Shaahed" - a beautiful man or boy.
After the Islam and specially the Shiite Islam establishment as the state religion in Iran by Safavid dynasty (Safavid Dynasty ruled iran from 1502-1736 A.D.), the act of pedophilia and sodomy in homosexual contexts, becomes forbidden religiously. As it still is by now. Though the religious sentence for homosexual relationship among men are death, but these days it would be rarely undertaken. May be it's because the pressures from global community on Iran about human rights and stuff. But about the pedophilia the law is strict and I believe that it should be.
By the way, before the age of the Internet, I myself didn't believe that there are much people out there with homosexual, bisexual and paraphillic attitudes and lifestyle and because of my crossdressing and paraphillia, I considered myself "a very special case" :) . Though I've checked out transvestism in dictionaries and encyclopedia and was aware about the nature of the matter, but I believed that it shouldn't be many people who had sexually different lives. When the Internet got widespread and accepted in Iranian society, those seen sexual minorities of the past - those who were using psychologist or psychotherapic consultation and so were counted and "statistic-ified" - became vast. By know when you check the Yahoo messenger chat room that are from Iran, you surely find two full chatrooms (of 40 people) on gays and at least one about lesbians, and many others on different aspects and activities.
I think that there are many Iranian cross-dressers out there, though I've encountered less than 20 in the past year. Cross-dressers mostly hide their attitude, because I think the majority are living a double-life with one side being the closet side. So they don't like the closet side gets mixed with the "real" - in contrast with "fantasy" - one. And so they hide it out.And they hide out any feminine gesture or feature, to avoid branded an "Evaa-Kha-har" (or "sissy boy"; passive feminine young boy). This former label is one of the most powerful labels Iranian public society brands males with feminine features with it, yet the most painful one to bear. This label has a close relation with being gay and worse being a pervert.
And all this is no wonder! I've been reading a post-thread on Tranny-web forums (
http://www.trannyweb.com), and I find out that the matter of society and family acceptance for tranny people is something really world-wide. Even in liberal societies, leave Iranian society which is achieving the very basic goals in democracy creeping and crawling.
After all the talk, I think we should help other Iranian cross-dressers (and trannies in general) with some kind of "knowledge or culture transfer". So I've decided to establish a weblog in Persian language for tranny concepts, with enough information needed for a transvestite or transgender to make good choices in life. In first steps it would a place for translating articles, FAQs, etc on the related concepts from English to Persian. And in next step, it can have a forum or something for people to come up with their ideas.
Choosing the way
I've been through a special phase during the past three-four weeks. Now, I found out that I really shouldn't change the way I feel the world for staying with a partner. My girlfriend doesn't know about myself being a cross-dresser. And because I know her opinions and ideas and the way she looks at things, I don't believe she would accept it.
I've been through an inner debate about changing myself to stay with her - which turns out to be relatively impossible - or leaving her. There is certainly a third way and that is staying with her for now and hiding it until the time we are physically and mentally close enough to open a discussion about the matter.
Matter of fact, we've been together for almost four years. She wasn't very truthful and started another relationship with a guy. He is that kind of guy who doesn't like her GF to be friendly with other men. By the way he walked into our relationship and though I like to find someone in this trio - me, my gf, and him - to put all the blame on, but I couldn't and I can't.
She is the kind of girl who is very sensitive type and very distorted about what she likes and what she dislikes in life; no method or ideology for life. So she usually turns out to make mistakes. I've accepted that by the way.She likes to live with someone supportive which doesn't force her into marriage. He isn't that type of guy. After all I think I gotta be close to her more, because I've been studying in another city all through this relationship. Though I don't like to get in a competition with him to have my hands on her (oof! The idea of a love-competition trio is really teasing.), but I got to choose the third way I've discussed earlier in this post; live and let live.
Time would do all that's needed. My emotional and psychological situation is much better now in comparison to past 6 months or year. By now, I rarely feel ashamed about my transvestism and I really thinks that's the way I am; in my mid twenties, like myself being a man and sometimes enjoying the crossdressing.
