Purged! I've purged! I know it's all wrong,but the contradiction between the sense of shame and the desire to do it was far more than my thresholds, the sense of isolation that having a secret like this brings. in my country there are only few people who can accept you this way and that's damn horrible.you can't trust anyone.

anyway, I don't know if once again I would start CDing or not.I really don't know.I haven't come to terms with crossdressing and my sexuality.I'm sure that purging was not the best way, it's only a way to stop and think about what's going on in your mind.all that I know is I want to be accepted for both sides of me.

I try to come out of my isolation a little bit,coming out to the real world.the world of fantasy would be on my mind......and I'd keep writing here.I'll be ok.  ¶ 2:58 PM